I’m writing this post experimenting with OmmWriter, a desktop tool that a friend told me about. One thing I like about it right away is that it allows you to write with your whole screen; all of the little bars, buttons, tabs, search fields, etc., etc., etc., are gone. It’s like having a blank piece of paper in front of you. There are different background styles; the one I’m using now looks like a light blue sky on a snowy day with a few bare trees across the bottom. Very calm. There is also soft music playing in the background, which is supposedly better with earphones. With my good earphones at home in the U.S. and me in England, I only have the pair I bring to watch movies on the plane, which unfortunately are in several pieces having fallen apart on the way over.I want to share a dream I had at the last Full Moon to demonstrate a few different things: the power of the unconscious to aid our learning of astrology (the unconscious loves astrology!); the actual content of the dream which illuminated an aspect of astrology that was fairly mute for me; the power of the Full Moon to bring something to light; and the reciprocal relationships between two houses in the birth chart.
(Uh, oh. Here I run into one of my first things I don’t like about OmmWriter. I often write with two pages open on my screen: one with the facts, figures, times, dates, etc. to the left and my actual writing page to the right. This way I can glance back and forth between them, checking information as I go along. As far as I can tell, I can’t do this with OmmWriter. I wrote this dream down as soon as I woke up last week so I’d like to have it right here to refer to, rather than having to toggle back and forth.)
I dreamed about my father’s brother who we used to call Uncle Pal. Uncle Pal passed away a couple of years ago and I hadn’t spoken to him in many years although I loved him dearly when I was a child. The dream definitely felt like it was set in an in-between place, not in this world. I was asking him questions about my father when they were boys. I asked him how it was to grow up with a mother in and out of the hospital with tuberculosis. I asked him if my father had always been so unhappy, whether he had displayed this when they were children or did it come later in life? We went on to talk about how I couldn’t ask my father these questions myself because by the time I was old enough to have them I had been banished from my father’s house for a string of things he disagreed with.
My uncle told me in the dream that since he was six years younger than my father he didn’t know whether my father was unhappy as a child. He said there were many people around to take care of them and that my father took care of him. He also told me that he spoke to my mother and father several times on my behalf, trying to encourage them to bring me back into the family.
Then in the dream my Uncle was smoking opium or marijuana and was angry with me for not sharing my spiritual knowledge with him. He told me that I had found the answers he was looking for and that I was withholding them from him. I realized I couldn’t really put into words what I knew, that it wasn’t on the level of words. He continued to insist that it was my responsibility to figure out how to share it with him; he had shared what he knew with me and now it was my turn to share what I know with him.
This dream came on the night of the Super Full Moon in Virgo with the Sun in Pisces. Virgo is on the cusp of my fourth house, with the opposite sign, Pisces, on the cusp of my tenth house. So this Full Moon straddled my fourth and tenth houses.
The fourth house governs our roots, our ancestors, our family of origin. The tenth house governs the role each of us play in the world. The fourth house is the very bottom of the chart and represents your base of operations, the shoulders you stand on to make your own mark in the outer world of the tenth. In the dream my uncle addressed both houses: the fourth-this is your family legacy, and the tenth-this is your responsibility to give.
When I woke up I started thinking about my ancestors, something I have seldom done. On both sides of my family there is a striking Virgo influence. On my mother’s side, my Irish grandfather was a bookkeeper and payroll clerk in the coal mines of Pennsylvania; my mother and my aunts were bookkeepers. On my father’s side, my father and uncle were scientists and academicians, and my uncle was also a writer. My grandfather was an Italian immigrant building contractor. Workers all, and specifically work ruled by the sign Virgo: work requiring specificity, a mind for details, and organizational ability. And work that yielded concrete outcomes.
I could see in the dream how my becoming a CPA was directly in the lineage of my ancestors. There is a family ethic of hard work and engaging in the daily duty of life to provide for and sustain others. None of these people were wastrels; nor were they artists, or entrepreneurs, or politicians, or wealthy. They were grounded laborers working with their minds with a family history of having left their homelands for the opportunity to work in America. And I have been such a worker too. As a young mother I took on the responsibility of providing for my son with ease and without support from my family. I never chafed at the routine of day-to-day work; instead I relished it and still do, sitting at my desk day after day. These indeed are my roots. But who am I?
My uncle seemed to address this question in the dream, too. With Pisces on the cusp of my 10th house, the house of our most public face engaged with the most mystical sign, he seemed to be saying, your gift is your spiritual knowledge, why are you not sharing it? With the tools from my family, earnest work, specificity, and articulation, I can navigate and articulate the shadowy mists of the Pisces realm. And if I don’t, then I leave others to try to find their own way, which can lead in unhealthy directions like drug use and escapism (remember he was smoking opium or marijuana.)
Full Moon Dreaming
I can’t overstate the impact of this dream and my appreciation for the tool of astrology to interpret it. The astrological literature says that the fourth house can be relatively unconscious in a person’s understanding of themselves. Most of the other houses are much more engaged with others and their meaning is apparent as we see our actions reflected in and impacting other people. But the fourth house is the most private part, the midnight side. I’ve done a fair amount of reflection about my early childhood family; I’ve had to! But the context of the ancestral family and the themes that run through it, and how those themes support my own contribution but do not define it; this dream brought all this to light – illuminated it, like the Sun illuminates the Moon completely at the Full Moon.
One more point: my mother has the same Virgo/Pisces 4th/10th configuration, as do I, as does my son. Hmmmmm. Passing this along through the generations? Are we mimicking our family customs rather than bringing our own contribution to the world? Who will break the chain?
You can use this dream in two ways. First you can look at where you have the Virgo/Pisces dichotomy and see if you can see how the earthy, grounded Virgo energy and the ethereal, mystical Pisces energy balance and inform two houses in your natal chart. Or you can look at the signs on the cusp of your 4th and 10th house and see if one describes your family archetype and one describes your ultimate intention for your work in the world.
What’s on the cusp of your fourth house? Have you worked much with your family archetype? Let us know what you’ve discovered in the comments. Perhaps in future posts we can look at each pair to see what it reveals.
My OmmWriter Test
As for OmmWriter, I found it nice for writing but I prefer MS Word for editing. Of course, I only played with the free version. There is a very inexpensive upgrade that may have more features. Have you tried it? What do you think?
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